Kaiser Mommy

Choose Joy. Every Time.

Daddy Love

I miss Scout. In the OMG where is he? Screaming out of me. I don’t usually do this when he’s gone. To be honest, knowing that Mom was going to be here while he was in Indy this week, I really had it in my head that we would “fix” everything. Two women and a baby, without feeling like I needed to support Scout and help him with this baby.. Read More

Could have been me

I can read on the computer and hold sleeping Alex at the same time. Skillz, mad skillz I have. Anyway, I blog jump to find interesting stuff to read to keep me awake because we are still waking every 75 minutes to eat and I do better just staying awake. I wasn’t supposed to get pregnant. With my irregular cycles and birth certificte accurate age, I had 4 medical professionals.. Read More

Elusive Sleep

I’m purposefully sitting in a room that doesn’t have Alex in it. I can hear him. He’s moving, he’s sneezing, he’s NOT sleeping, but he’s NOT screaming so all is well. Except that I’M not sleeping. and now he’s crying. fuck it all, I’m not going to survive till morning.

Day 284

Today I spent screwing my head on from yesterday – I’ll tell about that someday. But for now, it’s time to sleep.

Day 282

Incoherent, sleepy, achy, gaining weight by merely looking at food. Come on Alex, join the world.

Morning

Things are that suck: Snowing on APRIL 11TH!!! Seriously!!!!! Things that don’t suck (aka a positive byproduct of pregnancy) Actual orgasms during dreams.

Something that helps

I don’t brag on my husband very often, but after having a rather rough day, and him engineering a way to get the mobile attached to the bed, I have to say, slow dancing to the Pottery Barn Kids mobile rendition of “Walk with the animals” with him did make me feel more like facing this parenthood thing.

In Awe

I just slept 9 1/2 hours, and woke up without being in serious pain, and when I got up was able to walk with a little stiffness but not at all like a 90 year old woman with arthritis. I’ll concede that it is just possible that the chiropractor did some good yesterday. And that my bladder did not wake me up. And that the cat did not wake us.. Read More

Good Words

So I’m not going to be raising a girl – but I came across this and thought it was well done – and thought I’d share it with y’allhttp://melinor.blogspot.com/2007/03/dispirited-thoughts-after-hard-day.html

Indignity of the day

While I did get to avoid being “checked” (or as Becky says “I sure don’t miss those frequent checkups where they dig into you like they are looking for their car keys.”) when I had to leave the “sample” I did pee all over my hand. Sigh.