If I tell you I am scared

Will you tell me it is nothing?

Or will you share with me a time you were scared?

Will you gaslight me?

Or will you hear me?

Will you tell me it’s no big deal?

Or will you tell me you will be here when I am done?

Will you look away, not wanting to see me?

Or will you stand with me?

If I tell you I am growing, becoming better, learning

Will you remind me of my faults and weakness?

Or will you tell me you see the changes too?

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May those who love us love us.
And those that don’t love us,
May God turn their hearts.
And if He doesn’t turn their hearts,
May he turn their ankles,
So we’ll know them by their limping.

(Irish Toast)

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My Monday brings me face to face with personal and professional demons. I’m trying hard to be calm and steady as I prepare for it. Things aren’t going my way, but the difference between now and other times is that I am learning to trust myself, I am working on going with the flow, looking for opportunities. I’m not sure what tomorrow will set in motion, but I am trying my best to believe that all will come for good.