Still not loving Easter.

Today was meltdown day again. Scared. Scared of change, scared of what could go wrong, really not happy that after 10 months of sheer bliss I’m rewarded with some hella pain to make the 10 months of sheer bliss end. I mean, really, wouldn’t a tantric orgasm covered in chocolate really be better payback. And I mean an orgasm like a guy has one – something easy, not this female must work hard and concentrate on it to make it happen after losing it three times shit.

Off to go take a bath. Must return to work tomorrow. Normally I’m all sad at the end of spring break, but it’s not like I have to go back to work for long, just a few days. Okay, maybe 10 days, we’ll see.