Yesterday I had that sucky realization that while my baby was laying beside me being cute as a pig in …. that I was more sucked into the computer than paying attention to him.
When I’d read this a bit ago I knew it was striking a chord.
I fell into a bad habit. I read the computer when I pump. A lot of times I pump right after Alex wakes from a nap (usually because he’s been sleeping on me because I will do whatever. it. takes. to get the boy to nap. and you just can’t easily pump while a baby is sleeping on you.)
And I’ve been particularly sucked into the computer trying to get this server switch/name change/blah blah taken care of.
Don’t forget the soul crushing nights of hauling out of bed to pump 3 times in 8 hours.
Yesterday I realized I needed to make a change, so I wrapped up yesterday and started today fresh.
Baby woke me up playing at nine, I pumped, checked the computer briefly, closed it up, and spent the rest of the time making faces at him. We went and had breakfast, got dressed, let the mattress dudes in to deliver …. yes.. mattresses, and then we played till he got cranky and went to sleep.
Now I am sucked into the computer totally guilt free. During nap two (my plan is to) work on the house.
I don’t want to say the word ‘routine’ out loud. So I won’t.
However, from now on, if you see me online, please celebrate with me that the Kaiser is doing this:
(he rolled that way on his own, and yes, I’m still paranoid enough to check that he’s breathing every other moment)