I am not one for taking risks.

My bucket list is entirely bungee jumping and skydiving free.

I take the safe choices.

I am safe in my design, in my clothes, in my hair color.

I named my kid a safe name.

I drive a 4 door, silver sedan.

I try to not attract attention.

I keep my voice inside my chest.

I fear confrontation.

I am afraid of falling from heights. I am historically afraid of flying.

Except.

Ever since Dad died, I am not afraid to fly.

While flying into Salt Lake City last week, I realized there was no fear.

I like to think that is a gift from my Daddy.

That he didn’t say goodbye to me.

He helped me say goodbye to my fear.

I wouldn’t have considered the Ziprider on my own.

Leslie and Jessica were ALL about it.

Leslie who is taking the 30s by the balls.

Jessica who isn’t afraid to be beautiful

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We were doing this.

Nervous toots and all.

When the door opened, I screamed.

Not because I was scared, but because I COULD

I set free that voice that lives in my chest.

I threw up my arms and yelled “ALL RIGHT!”

Then I was silent.

I watched the trees.

I felt the wind.

I flew.

I laughed.

I fell in the arms of my friends.

Who were watching the entire time.

(Leslie and Victoria’s perspective on my Zipride with Jessica.)

And just because the ride ended, doesn’t mean I stopped flying.