After all the pain and growing and struggle.
After realizing I’m okay. I’m enough. I’m happy. Admitting to the world I like myself.
After choosing joy.
The opportunity for brand! new! shiny! happy! giggles! is amazing.
Being wise about this happy – enjoying the warmth of it, the beams of it coming off me, the uh, forgetting what I’m doing and daydreaming in front of the green tea at the grocery store like a tool . . . where was I . . .
Knowing my happy isn’t dependent on another person lets me be more joyful when others march to my drumbeat.
Knowing I’m okay just as I am let’s me open up to another person, to my friends, take a risk in throwing words out there, discussing ideas, being honest.
Being Me.
I am happy with me. And man I missed me. The real me.
8 Comments
Erin @ Miss Lifesaver
Amen!
cindy w
Damn, that was nice to read from you. Yay for happy. 🙂
domestic extraordinaire
yay for happy!!
pgoodness
I’m happy that you are happy! 🙂
TexasRed
So happy to see this!
Red Lotus Mama
I want to give you a HUGE hug.
I know in my heart I will be fine … that the pain will stop some day. Every minute seems to bring a different feeling … sadness, emptiness, numb, anger, exhaustion, relief. I don’t know which one is me, but I am guessing none of them really are.
Thank you for reaching out to me during this time. You give me hope!
MP
WOW.. so did I write that or did you? I have half ass dropped out of blogging.. I gave up me.. I didn’t know who/what/where anymore. I lost me. Facebookland (family friends) don’t know it but I am getting divorced and OMG I feel awesome.. You can read my blog to get the shortcut. The road back to me is scary.. but I am so excited. I blogged for So long.. and i lost focus.. I want to again.. I need to.. I want to start reading again..
{{{{hugs}}}}}
Al_Pal
*hugs* SO glad to read this from you, and so glad that you’re providing hope. 😀