I had it marked on the calendar for this 40 some days.
August 1, 2011. Declaration Day.
The day I would end my silence between the Dude and I.
The day I would declare where I stood.
After taking real time to be on my own and examine it all.
After giving him the chance to show how he really felt.
On this day, I declare I am done. After all these months, I am done. After all the praying, reading, learning, trying. I am done.
Knowing that I did everything I could. I exhausted every resource. I exhausted myself. I came up with every viable solution.
Knowing I loved and I loved really well.
Knowing I forgave. Again and again.
I have found abilities in myself that I had never met till now.
Maybe another life, maybe another form of relationship, maybe nothing at all.
The day I walk away. My choice.
The day I am done with “could’ve beens” and looking back and regrets.
The day I look at right now and feel ecstatic over how wonderful I am, this day is, my life is.
I am choosing me. I am choosing joy.
I hope you someday find your peace, your love, your joy, and that you realize you are so much more than worthless.
I know that can’t have been an easy decision. But I’m glad you chose you.
Good job, you. Much love.
Strength & peace to you.
I freaking love you and am ridiculously proud of you.
Bravo! I’ve watched friends hold on to relationships that were not good for them because they didn’t think they were worth more. You are definitely worth imore, and it takes a lot of strength to believe that and act on it!
I am so damn happy for you, I’m crying. #pregnancyhormones
You found your strength.
Choose joy, every time.
You are wonderful and I’m so glad you are choosing joy!
Sometimes putting our best interests at the forefront of our lives is the most challenging. I am so proud of you for recognizing your value. Hugs and many kisses!
Bravo! What a strong and healthy move on your part.
I love this. Kudos to you.
Good for you, babe. xoxo
What a wonderful way to honor yourself. Simply lovely. I am on this journey with you and hope to have my own Declaration Day soon. Can’t wait to hug you in person at the UNwedding. 😉
I’m SO proud of you. And so happy. Enjoy your joy <3
How did I miss this? Huzzah!! I’m happy for you and proud of you. Well-played, my friend.
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