On December 14th, 2012, my heart broke for my Victoria. Apparently my door was to blame. I’ve done a lot of pondering since that day. The louder the outside world has gotten, the more I have retreated into myself. I’ve come to a couple of conclusions. 1. None of us want to feel helpless. 2. None of us want our lives to be controlled by someone else. As far as.. Read More
Guilt? or is it shame?
I will do a lot of things as a teacher. Wear a tutu, worry about my kids, laugh when a Kindergartener throws up on the carpet, hold my breath and antibac my face, arms and hands when the “sneeze pocket” fails and I get hosed with … whatever. I will eat school lunches, use the teacher voice, sing songs, read books, do reports, miss my OWN kid’s first day of.. Read More
Ghosts of relationships past
I’ve become fairly superstitious when it comes to making sure the Dude is out of my life and out of my house. I set fire to my dreams of our life together months ago – When I cleaned out a closet and found more things I thought were long gone – those landed on the fire as well. I wanted them gone. Today as Alex and I cleaned the (expletive.. Read More
How I Got Here
Originally posted July 30, 2007 Sara kept telling me I should start a blog. In the middle of the night of the first few weeks of Baby Kaiser’s world, I started reading them constantly. I do not even know where I got started. It might have been here while I tried to figure out if it was normal that I could not put my boy down and have him stay.. Read More
To Whom it May Concern
Originally posted July 27, 2007 To anyone giving me dirty looks in the grocery while I was holding my vocally crabby infant and pushing his stroller: Yes, I know it looks stupid, Yes, I know he?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢s annoying to listen to, I know this because I spend several hours a day listening to it. You get to go home. Blow me. To the woman in the awesome dress with her daughter.. Read More
Red Tent Alert
Wanna find me live? Head to Sarcastic Mom and help determine the future of my hair. Originally posted July 7, 2007 So Aunt Flo has come to visit again. Now, typically I can get by the first day without having to really address the issue – I mean I don?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t have to stop going commando. Well apparently this one is different. Apparently this one decided t come on immediately. Which.. Read More
From the Archives – The New Normal – Day One
Originally posted June 25, 2007. Scout is up and at the office. This is the longest since Alex ws born that I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢ve been in charge of him – all but 30 minutes since last night at 1030. We?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢re doing okay. I don?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t get much done bc of the whol ?¢‚Ǩ?ìI won?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t sleep if you aren?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t with me?¢‚Ǩ¬ù thing. But I got decent sleep, got breakfast, went on walk to grocery.. Read More
From the Archives – On Love
Originally posted June 22, 2007. Last night my brother bought us dinner from Heaven on Seven. Generally known as the place Scout and I could eat every day until we die – and only available in Chicago. We planned dinner a week in advance. I had left overs, which is a joy of HoS because you get the love twice. So we got on the road today, leftovers sitting beside.. Read More
From the Archives – And again
Originally posted June 18, 2007 I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢m so sick of typing one handed that all my compter correspondence is just going to hell. I did want to post that I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢ve developed my first non curse word that seems to fulfill my needs as a curse word that I can say in public. I bring you : Clustersmack. Clearly public friendly replacement for ClusterFUCK. But the substitutions in Clustersmack seem to give.. Read More
From the Archives – The Good Body
Originally posted June 11, 2007 During our final teacher meeting on Friday, we were told that our school psych (who is rather tiring) was going to introduce two speech/debate students to do a dramatic interp (I can?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t remember which category it was, but this is close) that she and several others had found quite moving and thought we should all see. Now I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢m not really one to drag out a.. Read More
From the Archives – 11 Years
Originally posted May 31, 2007 Sara blogged about the Sara of 10 years ago. Which made me think about the Dawn of 11 years ago today. 11 Years ago just about right now I was at a rehearsal for a wedding. I was in a black crop sweater with red trim and buttons. I was in a denim skort. I was wearing the Mia fisherman sandals for chicks that everyone.. Read More
From The Archives – Could Have Been Me
Originally posted May 23, 2007 I can read on the computer and hold sleeping Alex at the same time. Skillz, mad skillz I have. Anyway, I blog jump to find interesting stuff to read to keep me awake because we are still waking every 75 minutes to eat and I do better just staying awake. I wasn?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢t supposed to get pregnant. With my irregular cycles and birth certificate accurate age,.. Read More
From the Archives – What Happened to Saturday
Originally posted May 20, 2007 Well I?¢‚Ǩ‚Ñ¢ll tell you?¢‚Ǩ‚Äú C R A B A S S oh yes. loud and proud baby crabass. Today we took a bath to cure the crab ass. Scout had left the room b/c he had just sat in the poopy diaper and was cleaning up. Alex was splashing and having fun with me in the tub. He started to get fussy and a little.. Read More