My wise friend Talyaa pointed out that while I may have disconnected from the Dude, that I was still holding on to the anger and hurt of the future I had planned on (and had been promised).
Taking her wise words, I dug out the papers I had with doodles and thoughts and plans . . . Papers I hadn’t thought of till she showed me what was going on that I hadn’t thought of.
So I made a house.
and then I burned it down.
I set myself free. Again.
Without malice. I just did what needed to be done. There is better out there for me than that future I was so attached to. I see clearly what I want, and why, and I know it’s the very best for me. The very, very, freaking best.
(Bulletin board next to my desk at work 🙂 )
A very cleansing ritual. Your friend is very wise.
Megan, Undomestic Diva
VDog (THAT Victoria)
Omg lookit that JOY!!!
(That’s a sigh of admiration.)
Yay!!!! I have participated in that same ritual. Something about fire is so powerful and cleansing, no? Good for you, my friend!!! 🙂
And if you have to burn it again, don’t call it a failure, just emphasis.
Colleen - Mommy Always Wins
It is SO HARD to let go of those dreams and hopes you had, isn’t it? I’m still struggling with it…not just things I had wanted of my life with my ex, but things I *still* want (and MAY be able to have some day) with this new relationship I’m in. But I honestly KNOW that if I can let go of those wishes — TRULY let go of them and trust that what God is going to give me is what is going to be best for me — that I’ll really be happiest then. I’ve experienced it in small doses and been awed by it…but my personality *SO* wants to fight for that control. I should try what you’ve done — I’ve done it before and know it to be therapeutic, too.
I’m sure my wife has had been having regular bonfires. Tricky to do under a burn ban, but she’s resourceful…