Kaiser Mommy

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Dawn

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Thanks (?), Ira Glass

Picture quote of the week from facebook is by some dude named Ira Glass who does some stuff with NPR and some thing called, “This American Life”. I have not yet decided if this quote sets me free or makes me want to put my head in the oven. Which as it’s an electric oven would probably just burn the fuck out of me and not put me out of.. Read More

Me ‘n’ My Act Together

Today was a good day. On very little sleep. After waking and having to adjust my attitude. With caffeine and cute shoes. And some nasty breakfast pizza. Fine, it wasn’t nasty, it was pleasurable in a totally guilty kind of way. Like all convenience store food. I worked solid today. Purposefully. I didn’t get to do everything I planned, but when something went awry, no big, I moved on to.. Read More

A Month of Selfish

I’ve long had the idea that if I took a section of time and REALLY looked at myself and REALLY worked toward taking care of myself in a focused effort to get my act together – and everyone else was doing the same thing with their ownselves – and THEN WE all reached out to one other person and helped THEM . . . and so on and so forth.. Read More

Next

Every time in the last few weeks that something has happened not according to MY plan, I’ve been told by SOMEONE to use it as an opportunity to figure out what is most important to me. I mean, I have a pretty good idea of what I hold most dear, but this is even more specific to me, what do I want to create in me, in my little world… Read More

A Little Rocked

I sat for just a moment in my car today before I went in to get Alex. I was thinking about a Kindergarten boy, so small he has a booster seat on the bus, I found out today his mom just might be dying. It’s her heart. She has good days and bad days, but she HAS days. I felt my own heart sway and shudder for him . … Read More

Today In My Life

745 Breakfast duty – greet students, smile, hurry along to get food, but not too fast because thou shalt not run! 800 See new student coming in with Principal, greet her like she’s long lost kin. Swap breakfast duty with principal, Hug a student back when she hugs me. Even though the hygiene is sketchy. Because I know things about this student that would make me scream in the night.. Read More

Still Screamin’

I’m okay y’all. I’m screamin’ it out. But I’m okay. I guess that post is one that was in my head one way and came out another way. I don’t like to be patient. I don’t like to wait and see. I want to know if my energy spent is worth it. Especially after spending so much of the last year on something most definitely NOT worth my energy and.. Read More

Scream it Out

Yannow the Linkin Park song Bleed it Out? In my case it’s scream it out. er. make that SCREAM IT OUT I’m just that mess of so much that needs to GET OUT After a week of being sick . . . without energy . . . the walls of the house closing in as I can.not.function and can only sleep to get the will to get out of bed.. Read More

tribute to my sexy voice

Smelly Dawn, Smelly Dawn, You smell like vapo rub Smelly Dawn, Smelly Dawn Wow barking co-ough! You sound like a smoking vet You’re not gonna sing at the Met Smelly Dawn, Smelly Dawn Wow barking co-ough! Your students think you are insane Your memory has gone down the drain Its hard to know if they know their sounds When your head feels like its in the ground! Ev’rybody! Smelly Dawn,.. Read More

Love and the City

I am a junkie for commentaries on dvds. I adore hearing what was on the minds of the people who created the thing I just watched. I’ve watched the Sex and the City series over the last few weeks – which I haven’t done before – the last episode is just full of quoteworthy material. “Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you.. Read More

people person

There’s a weird little flip side to the joys of independence. The times that I can’t fill the role myself. Like listing “in case of emergency” contacts for work. This week I was supposed to give the admin my emergency contacts. My mom was a no brainer (if a wee bit pathetic feeling) but a second contact . . . I had no idea. I had no “person”. I was.. Read More

I will make this a home if it kills me – and it might

Every day I do things on my own. The mom, the home owner, the teacher, the matriarch, the Dawn. I’m pretty bull headed obstinate stubborn determined to do this thing on my own – equal parts independence and not wanting to be a bother to someone else. My shower head broke this week – spraying water out the back and the front and making an Alex worthy mess of things… Read More